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Fly toward your Joy!

This witness has been spreading her wings to check out areas of this country that had previously been hidden to me.

Most recently, El Juglador and I traveled to Miami, where much of my family lives, and have been experiencing different worlds within the one we had known before. Those experiences include questions I had never muttered before. What is causing cancers that were never prevalent before? Why are so many suffering from allergies they had never before experienced? How are birds echoing whistles we taught their brothers miles away? Why do we avoid asking about people we wish were not in our life? Why do we prefer to think only of ourselves? Why do people prefer to remember the person you used to be rather than the new person you are? Why does the matrix entangle us so much that we can’t do what we really want?

No matter, really. The person you become when you start thinking about your thinking IS. It is the part of you that can find your Joy.

Joy is not found in the things you do or the people you know. It can not be bought at a store or found in a treasure chest. True joy, the kind that validates the Why of living, is found by doing what burns in your soul. I have found that it can be found when you listen to that little voice within yourself, in your gut, in your God essence, and ACT on what your heart calls out. Are you really alive in your day-to-day life? If not, why are you living someone else’s Joy?

If you are living your truth, congratulations, my friend. Keep going strong in your Truth and stand up for yourself, even with well-meaning loved ones who don’t understand. Maybe your Joy can be contagious. Maybe one day we’ll all be living in Joy and Truth, truly understanding why we were placed on this Being known as Gaia, truly understanding the quantum entanglement of Life.

The birds can be your brothers, as can the dragonflies, the trees, that park bench made from former living trees, that vehicle created with a myriad of Gaia’s gifts.

Think about your thinking, my friends, then think about your actions, connect it with the saying, As Above, So Below, then aim a little higher, outside the 3D existence, into the 4th, maybe even the 5th.

Shoot for the moon, and if you miss, you’ll land amongst the stars.

… as for us, we’re on the road again… 

When Spirit transcends

You know what I think? I think that people think I’m a little different because I talk about Spirits and Source and Namaste and God Bless You. They may even think I’m a little off my rocker, but not too much, so it’s okay. Maybe I’m just a little “woo-woo- spiritual, because some of the people I’ve claimed to communicate with are no longer in this world.

Okay, I’m fine with that.

What I wonder, though, is what would you think if I went one step further with my claims?

See, the thing is, I’ve been searching for something my entire life. The thirst that burned in me was sometimes quenched by a walk around a tree-filled area or some other spot where I felt close to “Mother Nature.” Sometimes, I would bury myself in a book or a TV show, but, while my mind was watching I Dream of Jeanie reruns or reading A Wrinkle in Time or listening to my Government teacher preach about the Magna Carta, my spirit was not paying attention.

My spirit was talking to God. (It’s really hard to remember things your Mind and Body go through that way, let me tell ya!)

Oh, it’s no big deal. We all do it, in some way or another, even when we don’t think we do. It’s that little voice inside your head that wonders if maybe you should go back and give that loose $5 bill in your wallet to that homeless man playing the guitar on the corner.

God’s the spiritual hug that filled you with joy when you thought you would never stop weeping.

God’s that wrong turn that led you to your best friend.

God’s there when “You’ll never believe it, but the weirdest, coolest thing ever just happened” to you.

So, yes. When I was a kid, I talked to God. I never said anything to other people. It was no big deal, really. I knew that everyone could have a personal relationship with our Creator.

Then I grew up and was told that people who talk about God are kooks or crazies or evil because they are judgmental terrorists.

And so I learned to adapt. I hid my faith so deeply I stopped believing. I didn’t stop talking to God, but I stopped listening.

Then God called me back.

For a long time, I continued to keep my faith hidden. Then I learned to make it palatable – if you talk about Source or Spirit or Mother Earth, you will be accepted.

Interesting. Same idea, different name.

Same idea, different connotation. I wonder why that is? Maybe it’s the religious people we’ve heard about in the past. Maybe it’s that Fire-and-Brimstone preacher who scared the crap out of you? Or maybe it’s that really awesome, one-of-the-guys kind of priest who was “playing” with that little boy? Or maybe it’s the representations Hollywood has made depicting Christians as loony, empty-headed racists.

We’re not all like that, and we’re not all judgmental.

How about if I tell you I can’t live a day without talking to God? Not just thanking Him for the blessings He’s bestowed on me, but having conversations where He answers and I hear Him.

How about if I tell you that I worry about my friends and family. Most people don’t know how I really feel about God and His Kingdom, because I never prayed “like a hypocrite.” I wonder if I’d worn my faith on my sleeve, though …..

So today, I ask you, dear readers, for one small favor:

*Throw away all of the conspiracy theories and the preconceived notions.

*Throw away the masks you wear so that other people won’t recognize you.

*Throw away all preconceived notions and all judgment, self or otherwise.

Once you’ve thrown away what you don’t need, seek out some privacy, someplace where you will not be seen and where you can be yourself. For some people, the answer to that is the bathroom. I encourage you, instead, to take up walking and head for a park.

Find your privacy. Now talk to God. Don’t beg for signs or for favors or forgiveness, just say Hi.

Then wait. God will say hi, back.

So, as I leave you on your own Spiritual quest, I will address one question some may have. Am I still searching for God?

Nope. I’ve found Him and have dedicated my life to His Will.

God Bless and Keep You Safe, my friends.

The Dragonfly’s Student

Rainy Day Musings on … The Lie

It’s an unusually rainy day in Miami. Maybe it’s the weather, maybe it’s that I’m contemplating the meaning of life, but another poem popped up in my own, personal Mental News Feed. It might be a little depressing, compared to my usually chipper mood, but introspection is necessary in this world. How else would we be certain that the path on which we travel is the right one for us and whether our expectations are realistic?

A leap of faith

The Lie

I fear that none of this

is real.

Not the home

which I adore,

not the dreams

I hold most dear

not the fire

in my heart.

The home

may become

a cross that weighs


on my back.

The dreams threaten

to become a fading mist

of lead pellets instead

of droplets

of water.

The burning fire

may grow dim

in the shadow

of a looming cloud

of perpetual rain.

I am

left to wonder as to


I’ve misinterpreted

my guidance

or whether

I’ve miscalculated

my goals.

The answer, I know, will only be found in a leap of faith.

There is nothing to fear.


The Dragonfly’s Student

The glorious Easter story


The Easter story was always my favorite biblical story. I identified with Mary Magdalene, the ever-loyal disciple who was given the privilege of being the first to see the Risen Christ and claimed The Lord is Risen! I wanted to be like her, so sure of her devotion to the Master that her motives were never questioned (by me, at least!)

A thirst for knowledge dawned through this story for me. I wanted to know more about the woman who loved. She became my guidance — my every decision has been based on this desire I had to be like her.

I think it’s a great guiding system I’ve set up for myself.

As I conclude my 40-day blog journey, I consider this as it relates to the temptations I spoke about yesterday. Many of them, actually all of them, caused doubt and made me question my decisions. Thinking about this now helps me remember that, whatever I do, if I can be sure that my decision was heart-based, not head-based or society-based, I can be sure that my self-chosen guiding system took over. (And if the head AND the heart agree, well that’s the goal, isn’t it?)

Phew,that’s a relief!

With this knowledge, I can now be at peace. I look forward to the fruits of the seeds I have planted throughout my life.

My next challenge … internalizing the knowledge of peace. Sheesh! Now, what? I want to be like the Virgin Mary?

Yeah, NO. That’s a lofty goal there! I think I’ll just work on internalizing the knowledge I’ve got so far. That’s a pretty big thing in itself, considering how easy it’s been so far (sarcasm isn’t easy to relay in text, is it?) I feel like slipping into some medieval chain-link armor before heading out into the world!

(I won’t post an image of She-Ra in armor, but … yeah, you get the picture!)

Namaste, my friends. Peace be with you on this glorious day.

The Dragonfly’s Student (Mari(!) Locklin)

When questions open our minds, question everything

At my cousin’s wedding recently, the pastor read a compilation from the new testament – something that sounded odd to me because I’d never heard the reading from Matthew 19, which seems to echo the reading from Genesis about how the Creator made them ‘male and female…’ Seamlessly, he continued (as if from the same book) from the Sermon on the Mount, Matthew 5. I wondered if maybe he combined two readings because the wedding was during Lent. Maybe. Still … it made me think.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. …”

I almost tuned out. After all, I’ve heard this a million times. Then I really started listening, which led me to thinking. (Maybe not something I should be doing during the wedding of one of my favorite people in the whole world!)


“Blessed are the meek …”

The thinking continued … What does that mean? Meek? Are we supposed to be spineless idiots or just bow down to others who would overpower us?

That didn’t sit well AT ALL. So the next day I got down to business searching for the full text of the sermon.

“It was written in Aramaic,” El Juglador said. “Search for the Aramaic/English translation.”

Then we started reading and were left in shock. I don’t speak or read Aramaic, so I have no way of verifying this, but the fact I had been questioning the traditional English translation made me want to continue reading. The text used to translate is the Khabouris Manuscript, (http://www.whyagain.com/beatt.php) a medieval era Aramaic manuscript of the New Testament that fortunately avoided the “cleansing” of non-approved versions of bibles in the Middle Ages. Don’t ask me what that’s all about, I’m not getting into that debate!


So, to start, Touveyhoun is the first word of every be-attitude that we typically have understood as Blessed or Blessing. In Aramaic, Jesus’ native tongue, he spoke of the eternal reward we can earn.


The following explanation of the Be-Attitudes is based on Aramaic and is as faithful as possible to the actual words of Jesus. It shows that the Be-Attitudes are in truth instructions and methods for evaluating progress and supporting us in achieving an exciting, reachable goal. Here Jesus provided the “how to’s” for living the “Greatest” and “Second” Commandments_ the keys to peace and life and health. His objective was so urgent that He used the word Touveyhoun repeatedly in this, His first public teaching!

This statement before each Be-Attitude more accurately carries the lost meaning of Jesus’ word –TOUVEYHOUN: God implanted in your mind neural structures which will guide you when they are active. If they are active, you who follow these instructions will come into conscious possession of and be able to use this latent guidance system, designed to make available thoughts and actions that will increase your happiness and well-being:

You who have a maskenii (home) in Ruhka (the active forces from God), yours is a malkoota d’shmeya (heavenly estate). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the poor in spirit, theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

You abili (who love Truth and profess your errors and the errors of your society), you shall be nitbeyoon (freed of mental stress). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are those mourning their wrongs, they will be comforted.

You who have makikh (humility – the mental quality of perceiving and cooperating with the good desires of others), you shall nartoun (gain the earth). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the meek, they shall inherit the earth.

You who hunger for kenoota (the mind structure underlying the attitude, judgment and behavior described as just or fair behavior between people), you shall attain it. Historically interpreted as – Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, they shall be filled.

You who have rakhma (pure love, encompassing judgment and behavior), you will therefore receive rakhma (pure love). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the merciful, they shall obtain mercy.

You who have dadcean (a completely purified mind,) you will mikhazoun (comprehend) Alaha (the Invisible Source of Creation). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the pure in heart, they shall see God.

You who abdey (through service, work effectively to produce) shlama (the peace and understanding under and in accord with God’s Will), you will be called the children of God. Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the peacemakers, they shall be called the children of God.

The “Greatest” and “Second” Commandments: You shall tidrakhim (maintain the condition of pure love) for Alaha (the Invisible Source of Creation) in your entire mind and with your whole naphshak (true self) in all your actions and in all your thoughts. This is the greatest commandment and takes precedence over all. The second, which is like unto it, you shall tidrakhim (maintain pure love) for karebak (neighbor_anyone near or thought about) as your naphshak (true self). Upon these two Commandments hang the Law and its prophets.

So God implanted neural structures in our minds? And when they go “active” we will be able to access our connection to our Higher Self? That’s what took my breath away. Jesus was speaking like the Spiritual gurus I’ve been reading lately.

This translation seems more aligned to the lessons I’ve been learning lately that feel so right. The heavy-handed lessons of our past are not the words of Jesus, as we’ve been told.

We are Spiritual beings and Jesus was giving us a how-to manual on accessing that Kingdom of God using our own abilities.

Reading the original documents is an eye-opening ability. I’m going to have to go back and read the bible in its original language, if I can. I wonder what Revelation really says in its original Greek.

I’m going back to my research now because, as I’m realizing, there’s no going back to the simplicity of ignorance anymore.

Peace and Love to you, my friends.

The Dragonfly’s Student

Love, defined

What is this love New Agers spout? You know, “Love and Light to you.” I’ve said it. Many times, it is said by those who profess being in alignment with their One True self and with being awakened. It is being is constant communication with the Truth of our Creator.

Some would say that for there to be love, there must be hate. Love is subjective, they may say, so they question when I say love.

Fine, let me define myself.

To me, Love encompasses many things. It means:

  • I care for you
  • I like you as a person
  • I care about you
  • I’m concerned for your well-being
  • I want you to reach your own happiness in your own way.

The romantic love, the one everyone else thinks when they hear the word, that is not what I mean when I say “I love you.” When I say the words, I mean the care-like-concerned-happiness definition. It means I care for you.

English is such a limiting language. Love, for us, encompasses what in Spanish, for example, is covered by:

  • amar (passion)
  • querer (want or like)
  • gustar (to like or to have a taste for, enjoy)
  • adorar (to worship)
  • tener cariño (have a fondness for)
  • ser aficionado (have a fondness for)
  • encantar (enchanted by)

In English, one word covers it all.

What if you’re bilingual? Does the meaning of the English word have the same connotation?

I think this may be the difference.

To me, the love I feel for my fellow man, and all creatures who exist on this planet, is encompassed in the Spanish word Quiero – I like you. But the English word does not encompass the passionate like I feel, so I say love. Forgive me for my adulteration of the language.

What I feel is Divine Love for my fellow man, understanding and allowing for the duality of humanity. I don’t have to like you to love the essence of your being.

Others may say that if there is love, in this dualistic world there must be hate. Ah, that is another topic for another day.

For now, my friends, I say,

Love and Light to you,

… and what those words mean for me, when paired, is the truth about Divine Love, for that is the essence of the love our One True Source feels for us – His Love and His Light to illuminate our Truth.

Many blessings this morning,

The Dragonfly’s Student

Enjoy the day

The Dalai Lama reportedly said:

Man surprises me most about humanity.

… he sacrifices his health in order to make money.

… he sacrifices money to recuperate his health.

… then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present …..”

Meditate on this rose garden today, my friends.

When I was a child, I heard the saying “Stop and smell the roses,” and immediately I knew what it meant. My favorite book was a little red book about a bull who enjoyed sitting under a tree and smelling the flowers. Like Ferdinand, the bull, I always wanted to enjoy the moment, to appreciate every second of every day. Then I grew into the matrix of this 3D world that tried to take me away from the roses.

I’m back now.

Enjoy every moment, my friends, and stop worrying about the future. The future is now. Find joy in the journey, not the destination.

The Dragonfly’s Student