Living your “Best Choice”

 Dear friends,

    I’ve been receiving some wisdom. I’d like to share with you.


                   The Dragonfly’s Student

The highway 

“Live your life, guide your questions, as if your soul had been shown all the possible timelines of your life and had chosen to live THIS one.”      ………… anonymous me

“I can be my own best teacher, if I allow.”

                                                                                                 anonymous me —

Who will stand?

“Can we be happy when there’s injustice in the world?” El Juglador mused.

I wanted to justify my ever-present happiness, but couldn’t do that without sounding heartless. “Well, as long as I’m working to make it a better world,” I said, boiling it down.

I feel that for my teacher, intent is not enough justification.

It really isn’t for me, either.

Then I remembered a poster I had on my classroom wall for most of my fifteen years at the high school.


That idea rings more true for me now than ever. As I see today’s society, infighting over gay rights that are really just human rights, fear over that mysterious entity with an ancient name as a marketing tool, and the latest state-tagging known as forced health care and microchips, I realize we are not in as good a place as many of us want to believe.

There is a war out there, my friends, but we are not the soldiers, we are the farm animals.

Stay sane, dear ones.

The Dragonfly’s Student

What’s Life All About?

Not to answer, my friends, but to ponder.

What is the meaning of life? I mean, really. Is there some greater purpose? Is this all about a game we’re playing just for the shot at living on Earth and experiencing the 3D wonders of which we have grown weary? Is this simply a merry-go-round on which we’ve placed ourselves, living life after life with no end in sight until we’ve become good enough to enter the Kingdom of Heaven? Will there come a time when our learning is done and we have reached perfection with God? Will I be bored with the end of learning?

Sorry for the doubt. Maybe it’s all because my 40-something birthday is less than two weeks away. (Okay, 49. Sheesh, that was hard to write!) This may be a mid-life crisis, after all. All of the major milestones are behind me for a while: college degrees, husband, children, career … Maybe I’m looking for the next milestone. Maybe I’m scared that I’m running out of time.

I wonder if the answer is in books. Should I read The Secret and study the Law of Atrraction? Should I continue scouring the Bible and the internet for answers?

As the week winds down, the questions stab me:

  • Why are we here?
  • Is there some greater purpose?
  • Are we meant for something more?
  • Is the meaning of life simply to live the best life we can?

I know this question has been asked. I know religions have been formed around that question, the answer being to live like the greats, like Abraham or Jesus or Buddha or Mohammed or other Ascended Masters. Their reason for existing was simply to give the rest of us an answer for that eternal question.

The truth seems to be there’s no way for anyone to answer this question for all of us. It’s a question that is for each of us to answer on our own based on our own truths, challenging ourselves as we strive for that semblance of perfection.

I definitely need to stop reading for a couple of days!

May your search for truth lead you in the right direction.




The Dragonfly’s Student

Pausing brain overload

Lately, all I can do is study. I’ve learned I’m not the only one going through the motions of awakening. I’m not the only one questioning the world in which I live. The more I learn, the more I want to learn. The more I read, the more I want to read. One book leads to another website to another book which I approach voraciously.

Sometimes, though, I feel like a robot on overload.

But I can’t stop.

I feel like maybe, just maybe, the next book will be the lesson that makes it all fall into place. I can’t stop. Not yet, I plead. I need to know more.

I feel my tires wearing thin, but I’ll change them later. Now I have to keep driving forward.

Then a voice steps in.

“Breathe,” she says. She’s at peace. The image I get is of Pocahontas sitting cross-legged on a flat stone in the forest.

Breathe,” she repeats, her voice soft and molodic in its peace.

This being is not a mystery. She is not something outside of me. She is my Higher Self, in a way. I call her Me 2.0. The other me, the one who’s obsessed with studying, she’s Me Beta version.

I listen to Me 2.0 and stop reading.

I know she’s right. I need to give the new information a chance to take root and grow or wither. My obsessive learning is sowing seeds that aren’t given a chance to settle into the fertile earth and grow.

It’s time to breathe.

Maybe a trip to the beach or the Everglades will help. No internet, no books. Just the sun warming my skin and the wind blowing gently around me.

Yes. I can feel the weekend approaching now.

Peace to you, my friends.

The Dragonfly’s Student

Sometimes, Mother Earth calls me to take a moment to simply breathe.

Petition for University of Miami students, alumni, faculty, and staff to preserve the pine rocklands on the South Campus land.

Today’s post is another share. This one takes two things close to my heart and puts them in a Pokemon-like battle.

I am a graduate of the University of Miami, School of Communication, 1988, and have always been a proud supporter of my “U,” to the point of proudly sporting a U tattoo.

I am also a fierce supporter of Gaia, or Mother Nature, or everything created for us on this beautiful planet. My heart cries when I see the land destroyed for things I see as unnecessary. In the south of the county, there are easily three Wal-Marts within a relatively short distance and four more a bit farther away. I see houses going up while others sit vacant, further angering me.

To me, the university was a place of learning and growing and researching, not destroying.

I share this to make a point.

petition UMiami to save the pine rocklands

In the summer of 2014, the University of Miami sold its South Campus land to developer Ram Realty with plans for a Walmart, hundreds of apartments, and a Chick-fil-A on one of the very last remaining significant areas of pine rockland ecosystem in the world. The outcry has been massive, and the University’s reputation has taken a huge hit. In a letter to the Miami Herald on March 13, 2015, Coconut Grove resident Marcia Proctor wrote, “The University of Miami should step forward to help rectify this mess. Its reputation has been deeply tarnished.” If you agree, please read the petition letter below. You can sign the petition by leaving a comment at the end of this post with your name and University of Miami status (e.g. “student,” “staff,” “alumnus/a,” “faculty,” etc.), or you can sign by sending an email to Thank you!

A New Beginning

To:  Donna Shalala, President, University…

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When questions open our minds, question everything

At my cousin’s wedding recently, the pastor read a compilation from the new testament – something that sounded odd to me because I’d never heard the reading from Matthew 19, which seems to echo the reading from Genesis about how the Creator made them ‘male and female…’ Seamlessly, he continued (as if from the same book) from the Sermon on the Mount, Matthew 5. I wondered if maybe he combined two readings because the wedding was during Lent. Maybe. Still … it made me think.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. …”

I almost tuned out. After all, I’ve heard this a million times. Then I really started listening, which led me to thinking. (Maybe not something I should be doing during the wedding of one of my favorite people in the whole world!)


“Blessed are the meek …”

The thinking continued … What does that mean? Meek? Are we supposed to be spineless idiots or just bow down to others who would overpower us?

That didn’t sit well AT ALL. So the next day I got down to business searching for the full text of the sermon.

“It was written in Aramaic,” El Juglador said. “Search for the Aramaic/English translation.”

Then we started reading and were left in shock. I don’t speak or read Aramaic, so I have no way of verifying this, but the fact I had been questioning the traditional English translation made me want to continue reading. The text used to translate is the Khabouris Manuscript, ( a medieval era Aramaic manuscript of the New Testament that fortunately avoided the “cleansing” of non-approved versions of bibles in the Middle Ages. Don’t ask me what that’s all about, I’m not getting into that debate!


So, to start, Touveyhoun is the first word of every be-attitude that we typically have understood as Blessed or Blessing. In Aramaic, Jesus’ native tongue, he spoke of the eternal reward we can earn.


The following explanation of the Be-Attitudes is based on Aramaic and is as faithful as possible to the actual words of Jesus. It shows that the Be-Attitudes are in truth instructions and methods for evaluating progress and supporting us in achieving an exciting, reachable goal. Here Jesus provided the “how to’s” for living the “Greatest” and “Second” Commandments_ the keys to peace and life and health. His objective was so urgent that He used the word Touveyhoun repeatedly in this, His first public teaching!

This statement before each Be-Attitude more accurately carries the lost meaning of Jesus’ word –TOUVEYHOUN: God implanted in your mind neural structures which will guide you when they are active. If they are active, you who follow these instructions will come into conscious possession of and be able to use this latent guidance system, designed to make available thoughts and actions that will increase your happiness and well-being:

You who have a maskenii (home) in Ruhka (the active forces from God), yours is a malkoota d’shmeya (heavenly estate). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the poor in spirit, theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

You abili (who love Truth and profess your errors and the errors of your society), you shall be nitbeyoon (freed of mental stress). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are those mourning their wrongs, they will be comforted.

You who have makikh (humility – the mental quality of perceiving and cooperating with the good desires of others), you shall nartoun (gain the earth). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the meek, they shall inherit the earth.

You who hunger for kenoota (the mind structure underlying the attitude, judgment and behavior described as just or fair behavior between people), you shall attain it. Historically interpreted as – Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, they shall be filled.

You who have rakhma (pure love, encompassing judgment and behavior), you will therefore receive rakhma (pure love). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the merciful, they shall obtain mercy.

You who have dadcean (a completely purified mind,) you will mikhazoun (comprehend) Alaha (the Invisible Source of Creation). Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the pure in heart, they shall see God.

You who abdey (through service, work effectively to produce) shlama (the peace and understanding under and in accord with God’s Will), you will be called the children of God. Historically interpreted as – Blessed are the peacemakers, they shall be called the children of God.

The “Greatest” and “Second” Commandments: You shall tidrakhim (maintain the condition of pure love) for Alaha (the Invisible Source of Creation) in your entire mind and with your whole naphshak (true self) in all your actions and in all your thoughts. This is the greatest commandment and takes precedence over all. The second, which is like unto it, you shall tidrakhim (maintain pure love) for karebak (neighbor_anyone near or thought about) as your naphshak (true self). Upon these two Commandments hang the Law and its prophets.

So God implanted neural structures in our minds? And when they go “active” we will be able to access our connection to our Higher Self? That’s what took my breath away. Jesus was speaking like the Spiritual gurus I’ve been reading lately.

This translation seems more aligned to the lessons I’ve been learning lately that feel so right. The heavy-handed lessons of our past are not the words of Jesus, as we’ve been told.

We are Spiritual beings and Jesus was giving us a how-to manual on accessing that Kingdom of God using our own abilities.

Reading the original documents is an eye-opening ability. I’m going to have to go back and read the bible in its original language, if I can. I wonder what Revelation really says in its original Greek.

I’m going back to my research now because, as I’m realizing, there’s no going back to the simplicity of ignorance anymore.

Peace and Love to you, my friends.

The Dragonfly’s Student