When the signs come, I can’t hide from the flood of synchronicity.
Another message from Spirit came to me randomly this morning. As I pulled into the parking lot at work, a new version of the classic song that moved me so much just weeks ago launched with an “exclusive” tag. I had to listen to the entire thing, an acoustic cover by another of my favorite groups, and, by the time it was over, I was addicted.
Like a compulsion, I played and replayed the song throughout the day, wondering why I seemed to have no control. I finally stopped when I left for home. Then, as if jealous that I was no longer paying attention, the song played again randomly later in the night. Searching my mind for the breadcrumbs and the synchronicity, I waited to understand what I’m being told.
Then it hit me.
I’ve been talking about wanting to make a Vision Quest this summer, a hunt for my true self and the answers to those eternal questions. I’ve scoured websites and bought books, but have yet to make the real map or detailed plan. I have barely touched the books.
I continue to wait, expecting, I guess, for the trickle of signs to remain barely less than a drizzle. Maybe it’s time. I think Spirit is leading me somewhere. This song is about taking a drive on the long empty road ahead of us (well, at least my interpretation is.)
What will this Vision Quest mean to me? I don’t know. Maybe that’s why I’m dragging my feet. Maybe I’m afraid of the changes I’ll encounter or the lessons I’ll learn about myself. Maybe I’m scared of digging deeper into my psyche and discovering who I really am.
On the other hand, maybe what will happen will be wonderful and will change my life and I’m scared to live a different life than the one I’ve become too comfortable with.
The question is, will I be strong enough to take the first step or will Spirit be forced to continue flooding me with signs until I drown in a Great Flood of synchronicity I become blind to? I hope I can see through my weaknesses to find my inner strength.
*Big Empty covered by Gemini Syndrome:
The Dragonfly’s Student