In the silence of the classroom after class has let out, I feel a sense of bravery. Only Teacher and I remain in the classroom. He is grading our latest exams. I stayed to talk.
“Why did you seek me out, Teacher? Seriously, I had no clue this school existed until that day you showed up in my classroom.”
Teacher glances at me out of the corner of his eye. “I had to. You’d forgotten our deal.”
“What deal? I’d never met you.”
“Is that what you think? Really? After all of this time?”
I chuckle. “Nah, it’s not really what I think anymore. Heck I dropped everything to follow you, dude.” I tap my fingers on my thigh until I work up the nerve again. “The thing is, Doubt is an evil neighbor. I go through life wearing rose-tinted glasses that blind me to the crap everyone else experiences, but every now and again I wonder how real my life is.”
My confession shocks me, but Teacher in unfazed.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m just making all of this up.
“What would you be making up?” See, that’s what I’m talking about. How come he can read my mind?
“What would I be making up?” I repeat the question. “You, my classmates, this school, this life,” I list my doubts. “I wonder if I’m still a teacher in room 406 just creating a really great fantasy world.” I focus my gaze on his steely blue eyes. “Is this all just a figment of my imagination?”
“It’s not in the 3D, that much I can tell you,” Teacher answers, setting aside his purple marking pen and another graded packet. “My dear, that 3D world you worry about so much is not reality. This is your reality.”
“What?” I try to shake the cobwebs of uncertainty out of my head. “How can my imagination be more real than the place where my body lives?”
“If you have to ask, your heart is not in it yet.”
He pushes himself from the desk and approaches me.
“Of course my Heart is in this. I love this life. I’d rather be here than anywhere else.”
“And your Soul? Where is your Soul?”
“My Soul? Isn’t that the same as my Heart? I’m confused.”
“Mind, Body, Soul, and Heart. Those are the four parts of you that share your existence. Four Roommates, if you will.”
“I’ve heard this, Teacher.”
“But you’re still questioning.”
“Well…” I stumble over an excuse that will help me save face. I’m supposed to be his TA. I’m supposed to know all of this.
“You’re still unsure.”
To keep from meeting his gaze, I glance at the purple and blue Dragonfly pendant I’ve placed on my bracelet. I feel him walking closer. “I don’t know what I’m sure of anymore.”
The words rip at my Soul, that part of me that knows every facet of my essence.
“What’s the difference between your Heart and your Soul?” Teacher crouches next to my desk, and the question causes the dam holding back my tears to burst. His hand brushing the top of my head soothes, but not enough to stop the pain.
“This is your Heart causing your tears. Your Soul doesn’t doubt. Your Soul knows the truth your Mind can’t accept. So when doubt causes you pain, that’s simply a roommate issue. Doubt is just a nickname for Mind those times she thinks too much.
“When you accept the reality of me, the reality of your Soul, your roommates take sides. Mind and Body in the physical, Heart and Soul with the Spirit. Logically, it would be difficult for Body to join them all in the Spirit World, but, ah, if we could join them all in the physical, now that would be heavenly!”
Suddenly, it all makes sense. “If we could get the roommates to accept each other in the 3D physical world…”
“That’s why you’re having so much trouble with this, dear Writer, but you are so close. If your Mind can accept your Heart and Soul in all of their varying forms, then all the body needs to do is live in the Now and enjoy her new blessing.”
Now to schedule a friendly roommate retreat to get everyone on the same page!
“Thank you, Teacher. You are too patient!
Until next time, dear classmates, I remain your ever-faithfullly,
The Dragonfly’s Student